Hello to everyone.

I have not logged on to this blog for a VERY long time. I can see my last post was posted over TWO YEARS ago. The first thing that caught my eye as I logged on was the large ammount of comments. When I was approving non-spam comments I noticed the entries I have written in the past have upset some. All I have to say about it is; There’s something WRONG with YOU when you care enough to type a 20 + line comment to complain on a strangers point of view.

Can’t say I agree with my ol’ self. I’ve changed dramatically. Developed is probably the correct word. I was sad, angry, hurt, negative, depressive – so opposite me now adays! I was captured inside myself whilst today I fly free! But I gotta say that WOW I had some deep thoughts.

It is really a waste of time commenting the posts on this website and really a waste of time to read the posts so I decided to DELETE every post that felt way TOO off and bless you all with a link to my new better self.

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GOD BLESS

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Confused rambles.

The good, the bad. To take the bad with the good, the good things often weigh out the bad things. If we do not give it more recognition than we should. Is it depression to act the other way? What do we see, what do we fail to see. Is it in our emotions, the way of our emotions, that sometimes brings unpleasant things. Or is it soley a matter of the mind. Is it the soul. What is the soul? Does it think, does it feel, does it do anything? What is it?

Morning mist.

“People you love, you treat them differently. You hold them to a much lower standard.”

The vague signals you send out keeps me alert. To me you are difficult to get a sense of. You don’t reveal much, you are quite a mystery. But I’m loving what I’m finding out. And out of selfish reasons I am glad that the message with you is not clear, because other women don’t get the chance to see how truly beautiful on the inside you are.

To love a Scorpio

She dances to the symphony of a dramatic composition.

Enticed by the rythm of its perfect contrition.

metrical writing.

Complaint, bad mood.

I’m in a bad mood. I mean a really bad mood. And the net gets me in an ever bader (mm) mood. Some are so STUPID!  And why do some write “hugsss” in the end of a PM to ppl they don’t know! They wouldn’t say “hugs” to stranger they’ve said a few words to IRL and they sure wouldn’t give them a hug. And please do not give me an explanation to actually WHY they do so because it would make my mood even worse. I am not asking why! I don’t want a cyber hug or a real hug from any stranger. Act REAL with me pleeeaaaasssee.  My cell phone just died and I needed to make a phone call on it. Gosh I will not even begin typing everything down that irritates me at this moment.

But one thing I will say. Those that doesn’t got a fucking clue about anything doesn’t need to say anything to me. I’m not up for games or play, not now and not even when I’m in a good mood.

Neutral People.

I’m not often effected badly by others, but at this moment I am by people with a special belief. The neutral-go along ones that does not have the power to say “Hold It”. The laid back ones that could have a good point but decides to go with the flow because it’s convenient in one way or another. The ones that does not have any thoughts of the future and our offsprings. Those that only cares about here and now and their own satisfactions. That do not care what things could do to the people of the world. Those that does not understand that things will get worse because of people like them. That does nothing else but being neutral because they are too lazy for something else. Whos eyes are not awaken enough to see that they feed to the problems. Those with twisted needs which destroys other peoples lives, the selfish ones. If not neutral: The ones that are for the wrong things. Wrong things being what ever thing that is destructive. It may give yourself pleasure right now in this time, but it could also hurt others now at this time and you do not even think about that. Just as long as your own twisted needs gets fullfilled. Just as long as it feels good to you. Ofc I am speaking (writing) of buying and selling sex. Those that are not against buying that service ofcaurse. That, is what is getting to me atm.

Dead end.

To be real, I believe I drive every new person I meet off. I think I am that much different in behaviour than most and what they expect and/or are use to. Not saying that I act real freaky or odd, I just think I speak a different language. They don’t get the reaction from me that they are use to. I think I’m different because I have other priorities, so ofc my way of life (thinking) is what I present into my way of being. I think that they think that I’m weird, because I don’t fall under the category “normal”. Thinking further.. it’s not that I’m abrupt or cold but I don’t respond to that simple thing of small teasing with a giggle and a joke back as many expect cause I just don’t find that to be something I am interested in. Perhaps by not responding in that way they think of me as boring. But as I wrote, I just have other priorities. Guess it’s easy to say that I’m not an easy flirt, from somes points of views. I do not wish to change, I want to be who I am, I am comfortable this way. But I don’t want to drive 97% of strangers away either. Dead end perhaps.

Lucid dreaming

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Lucid dreams occur during REM sleep after the person becomes conscious and aware of dreaming within the dream.

Lucid dreaming is the conscious perception of one’s state while dreaming, resulting in a much clearer (“lucid”) experience and sometimes enabling direct control over the content of the dream. The complete experience from start to finish is called a lucid dream. Stephen LaBerge, a popular author and experimenter on the subject, has defined it as “dreaming while knowing that you are dreaming.”

LaBerge and his associates have called people who purposely explore the possibilities of lucid dreaming oneironauts (literally from the Greek ονειροναύτες, meaning “dream sailors”). The topic attracts the attention of a diverse and eclectic group: psychologists, self-help authors, New Age groups, mystics, occultists, ufologists and artists. This list is by no means exhaustive nor does interest in lucid dreaming apply necessarily to each group.

Lucid dreamers regularly describe their dreams as exciting, colourful, and fantastic. Many compare it to a spiritual experience and say that it changed their lives or their perception of the world. Some have even reported lucid dreams that take on a hyperreality, seemingly “more real than real”, where all the elements of reality are amplified. Lucid dreams are prodigiously more memorable than other kinds of dreaming, even nightmares, which may be why they are often prescribed as a means of ridding one’s self of troubling dreams.

The validity of lucid dreaming as a scientifically verified phenomenon is well-established. It may be classified as a protoscience, pending an increase in scientific knowledge about the subject. Researchers such as Allan Hobson with his neurophysiological approach to dreaming have helped to push the understanding of lucid dreaming into a less speculative realm.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lucid_dreaming

Gender and Communication.

Before continuing, reflect: why are you reading this – what do you need?

In the interesting, well-researched book Brain Sex (1991), geneticist Anne Moir and co-author David Jessel say that the development of a person’s brain and certain glands are mainly programmed early in pregnancy by the presence or absence of male sex hormones – specially testosterone.

All embryo brains start out wired “female” (!) Moir claims that social programming is an important but much weaker factor in determining whether a person has “male” or “female” traits and response patterns. Male and female brains are structured and process information differently. Adults’ and kids’ brains are on a continuum from “very male” to “very female,” and function largely independently of the gender of the body they’re in (Hence “tom-boys” and “sissies”).

Because of this, Dr. Moir urges that we stop the “battle of the sexes” – for neither is right or better, we’re just “wired” differently. Thus in communicating, it would help if men and women stop judging and trying to convert each other (“You are so illogical!; Yeah? Well you have the sensitivity of a tree stump.”), accept our different abilities and skills as complementary, and blend them cooperatively to manage our life challenges! This seems to answer Henry Higgins’ question in My Fair Lady “Why Can’t A Woman … Be More Like A Man?!”

Some of these innate, largely biological differences seem to be:

High-Testosterone People
(“Male brains”) prefer:

_ things

_ facts, reason, and logic

_ power / rank / status

_ competing / achieving

_ winning

_ teams

_ analyzing / figuring out

_ assertion / aggression

_ reports / information

_ intellectual understanding

_ sex (intercourse / orgasm)

_ companionship / doing

_ teaching / leading

_ being focused / specific / “logical”

_ order / rules / structure

_ thinking

_ how things work

Low-Testosterone People
(“Female brains”) prefer:

_ people

_ feelings, senses, and meaning

_ relationships

_ harmony / relating

_ sharing

_ groups

_ intuiting / “knowing”

_ co-operation, mutuality

_ rapports / bonding

_ empathizing

_ love / intimacy

_ closeness / being

_ nurturing / growing

_ being “wide-angle” / organic / wholistic

_ organic, fluid patterns

_ feeling / experiencing

_ personal and social impacts

A key implication here is – if your partner has a different profile of these priorities than you do, it’s useless and disrespectful to criticize or try to change them. Attempting to do so is like demanding that s/he change her or his fingerprints. What do you think?

Source.

Male-Female Differences in Love, Sex, and Intimacy.

When anger or another problem enters the picture, the differences between men and women and physical intimacy become even more evident.

He feels that making love will make-up.

She feels they must make-up before making love.

When the relationship is in disrepair, a woman will feel it has to be repaired before sex, not repaired by sex. And a man will feel exactly opposite.

Men have sexual thoughts often during the day.

Women can go for hours, even days, without a sexual thought.

For women touching without sex is soothing and comforting. It imparts a warm feeling of security.

For many men, touching without sex can easily be misunderstood and even threatening.

Watch men together. When men touch it is in a rough manner–punching each other or slapping each other on the back. This is because tender touching has sexual undertones for a man. It makes many men feel vulnerable and dependent, feelings men have been socialized to feel are unmasculine.

Young women dream about love and romance; young men dream about sexual fulfillment.

Men are not comfortable with so much closeness and intimacy that they feel vulnerable. Women are not comfortable without it.

Women view sex as coming from a close, intimate relationship. Women want to be in love before having sex. Men think sex is an expression of love.

For women the relationship eventually includes sex. For men the relationship doesn’t really start until it includes sex.

For most women sexual involvement implies that a relationship is possible. For men, such an implication is certainly not automatic.

Women rarely comprehend a man’s ability to separate sex and love. If “her” man has sex with another woman, he can not still love her.

So. Only solution I see is that us women becomes lesbians because only a woman can satisfy a woman. Sperms can be donated for the survival of the species. But hey! I don’t like women in that way.

Perhaps the following can save me:

Definitions and realities are in order here.

1. Not all women are alike. Some women are more evolved than other women.

2. Not all men are alike. Some men are more evolved than other men.

3. Gender identity is the sense we have of belonging either to the male half of the human race or the female half of the race.

4. Gender conceit is when either sex assumes that what is natural and preferred for her/his sex is correct for both sexes.

Source.