One way conversation

Every late evening, no matter how adventurous my day has been;
I feel really low and sad, very depressed.
Next morning with the sunrise I feel more alive and happy again.  Reasons could be more than only one.
But I know that if I wasn’t alone at these hours I wouldn’t get so low.
I couldn’t do anything to feel better either.
Because I do not at all wish a room mate, yuck.
And my partner and I can’t share an apartment just yet.
So see, there is no way out of this.

Why don’t I want a room mate..
My home is my home,
I couldn’t stand another person messing around in it.
I need peace and quiet when I need it, like at bedtime.
I’d go nuts of all the friends she would bring over.
Ahh, endless reasons.

I had a disturbing nightmare from which I woke up from this night. I woke up hurt and frustrated. So evil our dreams can be to us sometimes.
It was of unfaithfulness, so ofc I woke up feeling hurt.
I believe that in my heart in my dream I forgave him because I did not want to be without him.
But I wished to speak of it with him but he just were so distant, hence the frustration.
I was sad, oh so sad, that he was so unreachable, and from the act itself ofc.
I didn’t get the full story from him, but I did from her.
She did not know he was in a long term relationship.
Evil dream.
Truely evil =(.


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Hi and welcome. This is my journal where I can find a peace of mind. Perhaps teach myself something. I escape here to unwind, cry or complain, or share my joy. Hope you enjoy your stay.

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A 27 year old womans attempt to understand herself and the rest of the world. Difficult to explain myself with only a few words, you decide from the words in my journal. I suppose I am trying to find my strength through this so I think I am a bit confused, I'm quite emotional and very loving though I at times may seem very cold.

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