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Hello to everyone.

I have not logged on to this blog for a VERY long time. I can see my last post was posted over TWO YEARS ago. The first thing that caught my eye as I logged on was the large ammount of comments. When I was approving non-spam comments I noticed the entries I have written in the past have upset some. All I have to say about it is; There’s something WRONG with YOU when you care enough to type a 20 + line comment to complain on a strangers point of view.

Can’t say I agree with my ol’ self. I’ve changed dramatically. Developed is probably the correct word. I was sad, angry, hurt, negative, depressive – so opposite me now adays! I was captured inside myself whilst today I fly free! But I gotta say that WOW I had some deep thoughts.

It is really a waste of time commenting the posts on this website and really a waste of time to read the posts so I decided to DELETE every post that felt way TOO off and bless you all with a link to my new better self. 🙂








Confused rambles.

The good, the bad. To take the bad with the good, the good things often weigh out the bad things. If we do not give it more recognition than we should. Is it depression to act the other way? What do we see, what do we fail to see. Is it in our emotions, the way of our emotions, that sometimes brings unpleasant things. Or is it soley a matter of the mind. Is it the soul. What is the soul? Does it think, does it feel, does it do anything? What is it?

Morning mist.

“People you love, you treat them differently. You hold them to a much lower standard.”

The vague signals you send out keeps me alert. To me you are difficult to get a sense of. You don’t reveal much, you are quite a mystery. But I’m loving what I’m finding out. And out of selfish reasons I am glad that the message with you is not clear, because other women don’t get the chance to see how truly beautiful on the inside you are.

To love a Scorpio

She dances to the symphony of a dramatic composition.

Enticed by the rythm of its perfect contrition.

metrical writing.

Complaint, bad mood.

black and white - woman

I’m in a bad mood. I mean a really bad mood. And the net gets me in an ever bader (mm) mood. Some are so STUPID!  And why do some write “hugsss” in the end of a PM to ppl they don’t know! They wouldn’t say “hugs” to stranger they’ve said a few words to IRL and they sure wouldn’t give them a hug. And please do not give me an explanation to actually WHY they do so because it would make my mood even worse. I am not asking why! I don’t want a cyber hug or a real hug from any stranger. Act REAL with me pleeeaaaasssee.  My cell phone just died and I needed to make a phone call on it. Gosh I will not even begin typing everything down that irritates me at this moment.

But one thing I will say. Those that doesn’t got a fucking clue about anything doesn’t need to say anything to me. I’m not up for games or play, not now and not even when I’m in a good mood.

Lucid dreaming

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Lucid dreams occur during REM sleep after the person becomes conscious and aware of dreaming within the dream.

Lucid dreaming is the conscious perception of one’s state while dreaming, resulting in a much clearer (“lucid”) experience and sometimes enabling direct control over the content of the dream. The complete experience from start to finish is called a lucid dream. Stephen LaBerge, a popular author and experimenter on the subject, has defined it as “dreaming while knowing that you are dreaming.”

LaBerge and his associates have called people who purposely explore the possibilities of lucid dreaming oneironauts (literally from the Greek ονειροναύτες, meaning “dream sailors”). The topic attracts the attention of a diverse and eclectic group: psychologists, self-help authors, New Age groups, mystics, occultists, ufologists and artists. This list is by no means exhaustive nor does interest in lucid dreaming apply necessarily to each group.

Lucid dreamers regularly describe their dreams as exciting, colourful, and fantastic. Many compare it to a spiritual experience and say that it changed their lives or their perception of the world. Some have even reported lucid dreams that take on a hyperreality, seemingly “more real than real”, where all the elements of reality are amplified. Lucid dreams are prodigiously more memorable than other kinds of dreaming, even nightmares, which may be why they are often prescribed as a means of ridding one’s self of troubling dreams.

The validity of lucid dreaming as a scientifically verified phenomenon is well-established. It may be classified as a protoscience, pending an increase in scientific knowledge about the subject. Researchers such as Allan Hobson with his neurophysiological approach to dreaming have helped to push the understanding of lucid dreaming into a less speculative realm.

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Hi and welcome. This is my journal where I can find a peace of mind. Perhaps teach myself something. I escape here to unwind, cry or complain, or share my joy. Hope you enjoy your stay.

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A 27 year old womans attempt to understand herself and the rest of the world. Difficult to explain myself with only a few words, you decide from the words in my journal. I suppose I am trying to find my strength through this so I think I am a bit confused, I'm quite emotional and very loving though I at times may seem very cold.

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