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Neutral People.

I’m not often effected badly by others, but at this moment I am by people with a special belief. The neutral-go along ones that does not have the power to say “Hold It”. The laid back ones that could have a good point but decides to go with the flow because it’s convenient in one way or another. The ones that does not have any thoughts of the future and our offsprings. Those that only cares about here and now and their own satisfactions. That do not care what things could do to the people of the world. Those that does not understand that things will get worse because of people like them. That does nothing else but being neutral because they are too lazy for something else. Whos eyes are not awaken enough to see that they feed to the problems. Those with twisted needs which destroys other peoples lives, the selfish ones. If not neutral: The ones that are for the wrong things. Wrong things being what ever thing that is destructive. It may give yourself pleasure right now in this time, but it could also hurt others now at this time and you do not even think about that. Just as long as your own twisted needs gets fullfilled. Just as long as it feels good to you. Ofc I am speaking (writing) of buying and selling sex. Those that are not against buying that service ofcaurse. That, is what is getting to me atm.



Some are pros @ rubbing you wrong.

Not much that you say or do appeal to me.
In fact it’s very much the opposite.

And I have noticed that by allowing this to continue it makes me miserable.

If pretty much everything with you is so bad for me that effects me so greatly in a negative way I shouldn’t allow it to proceed.

Your persona simply sends out signals which aren’t compatible with my receiver.

It is out of selfish reasons that I on occasion actually feel alright being in contact with you.

In addition to those moments my presence remains out of pity.

Doesn’t I portray myself just like a heartless bitch.

On the contrary, every one are not compatible.

If I delete you from my net of contacts, I fear that one day I might regret it.

So, a silent, unnoticable retreet may be all that I dare to perform.

The selfish bitch has spoken.


Hi and welcome. This is my journal where I can find a peace of mind. Perhaps teach myself something. I escape here to unwind, cry or complain, or share my joy. Hope you enjoy your stay.

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A 27 year old womans attempt to understand herself and the rest of the world. Difficult to explain myself with only a few words, you decide from the words in my journal. I suppose I am trying to find my strength through this so I think I am a bit confused, I'm quite emotional and very loving though I at times may seem very cold.

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